2am Ramblings

I should be sleeping since it's almost 2am, but I just finished feeding Valarie and she fell asleep on me. . . she looks so adorable I don't want to move her yet. Speaking of feeding her. . . she is now strictly formula feeding. I wanted to breastfeed, but it just wasn't working out and pumping was exhausting and I kinda just gave up. I wish she would breastfeed because I wanted that bond with her, but it's ok. There's nothing I can change about it so I'm not going to sit and dwell on it.

I painted Val's nails again today. Baby blue. Seriously, super cute.

It is officially Tuesday, my baby is four weeks old! It's so crazy, I feel like her birth was forever ago, but at the same time I do not feel like I've had her for four weeks already! She's going to be a month old on Friday, time really does fly. She's already growing out of her newborn pajamas, it's kinda sad!

I can't decide if Valarie has colic or not. Some days I think it's just her being a newborn, but other days I feel like it HAS to be colic.

Shane and I both woke up super sick Sunday. We've never been sick at the same time and it was miserable! I text my mom to let her know that we wouldn't be coming over for dinner because we were sick, (we go to dinner at their house every Sunday,) and my mother, being the amazing mom she is, offered to take Val for the afternoon so we could try to rest. She and Brooklyn picked her up at 4pm and kept her until 11pm! It was nice, but not at the same time because we were both so sick we couldn't sleep. Monday we woke up both still feeling sick, but luckily it was Shane's day to work from home so he was able to still work. My mom and Brooklyn picked Val up again, this time at 8am, and kept her until 4pm! I actually slept this time and felt so much better later! It is now night and the only thing that still hurts is my head and a few sore muscles. Yay for getting better! And a huge, ginormous thank you to my family who so willingly watched my baby for two days! Having a baby is hard, but being sick with a baby seemed near impossible!

Having a baby is hard on the body physically! Haha! A post-baby belly is not a pretty sight, I think it's safe to say I will never look how I used to. It's worth it, but it's not easy to always look at. . . I'm working on trying to at least get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, but I know in order to look how I did before I need to tone. I have 8 more pounds to lose to get to pre-pregnancy, (but 25 to get to pre-marriage weight, which is ideal,) and A LOT of toning to do. SO, if anyone has any advice to help me get where I want to be, please please please let me know!

My Diet Coke craving has come back and it is worse than ever. Shane even mentioned the other day that my cravings now seem worse than when I was pregnant. HA.

This post is getting to be a lot longer than I intended, so I will close with this:

I love being a mom and I love my sweet little girl!!