Can I just vent for a few minutes? I'm a little tired. Tired of not getting much sleep, tired of feeling like I'm constantly working, tired of never having alone time. The last time I think I was completely alone, (I need my alone time people,) was before Val was born. What I am most tired of though, is trying to be someone I'm not.
I feel like these days the only acceptable mom is the Super Mom. The mom who loses all of her baby weight in a month, who does her hair and makeup so it's flawless every single stinking day, the mom who has a Pinterest house that never has a spot of dust of object out of place, and the mom who finds time to exercise daily, spend quality time with her children, cook dinner, and please her husband.
I am not that mom. As much as I want to be that mom, I never will be. I don't doll myself up and I'm still carrying ten pounds of baby weight. Yeah I work out three times a week, but it's with my mom. Our work outs are half vast. We talk and visit, lifting a weight or doing some cardio in between stories. My house is always a mess, unless it's ten minutes before I know someone is coming over. In that case I stuff and hide all my crap and do a quick sweep over the floor. Yes, I play with my baby, but some days I'm exhausted and the only thing I can do with her is put her in her walker and turn on Yo Gabba Gabba. The small amount of energy I have is from the ridiculous amounts of Rockstars and Diet Cokes I drink. Dinner is usually a five minute meal and at the end of the day I can give my husband about twenty minutes of my time for catching up and kissing.
I can't be that perfect mom. I can barely be a functional mom. But you know what? That's ok. My husband and daughter are happy and we're surviving. We're dragging by one day at a time, and we're happy.
Society is stupid anyway. Who does it think it is, telling me if I can't be perfect then I'm not good enough? My family loves me, my friends love me, and my husband and daughter love me. I don't know why society thinks I have to prove myself to it. I owe them nothing. I'm happy how I am.
I don't know where I'm going with this. This post is all over the place. Basically, I guess I'm trying to say I'm sick of feeling down on myself because I'm not Super Mom. I'm a great mom, and I'm not going to let myself feel bummed anymore.
I am good enough.
Dude, I feel this same thing every day. But seriously, you ARE Super Mom! You are an amazing mom, and it's okay to admit that being a mom is freaking hard sometimes. It's a job that most people don't understand how hard it is until they're finally in it, and man, I'm experiencing that very thing, hahaha.
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You are not alone! I consider it a good day if just downstairs is halfway clean, if I at least get to shower (it is a great day if I put makeup on and do my hair and wear something besides yoga pants) and if dinner is at least something edible. LOL
ReplyDeleteI hate all the mommy blogs that make motherhood and just plain life seem so perfect. It is horse pucky! No ones house is that clean, no children are that well behaved and no meal ever looks that perfect.
You are a good mom. You look adorable (I promise), your baby is cute, happy and healthy and you make your husband happy. That is more than enough!!!!