Marriage

I love being married and I love my husband. I love going to sleep with him less than a foot away from me and I love being so happy. I really can't remember the last time I was this happy. (I think I was nine.) 

Being married is great, people!

Love and marriage is sometimes a difficult topic to discuss. Before Shane and I got engaged, I hated talking to my married friends, (I still loved them though!!) I hated reading lovey nonsense on facebook, and I hated looking at pictures of couples who were so happy together. I hated it all because I was jealous. I wanted to have all that and I wanted to be in love.

A little before Shane and I started dating, I had completely sworn off boys. I had my guy friends, but I was refusing to let myself get involved with anyone. I kept telling myself over and over that I loved being single, hoping that if I said it enough, it would come true. I was done with relationships. In my previous blog, www.myfishmonster.blogspot.com (it's still there,) I had even written about how awesome being independent and single was. I wrote:

"I am single. I have realized that this is exactly what I need to be truly happy. I need to be FREE. I need to let myself do what I want and not worry about anything else. I don't want any commitments with anyone. I want to be my own self, worry about my own self, and have fun for once."

Oh how wrong I was! I'm pretty sure I made God laugh with this, because two months after I wrote this, Shane showed up in my life. And man. . . our relationship moved FAST! We went on dates every night, (I kid you not, we still have yet to go a day without seeing each other,) we became exclusive within ten days, we began talking about marriage two weeks into our relationship, and on September tenth, one month and one day after our first date, we got engaged. We sealed the deal on December first. 

Doesn't that sound scary?? Moving that fast, hooooly crap! I always told myself I would never even consider marriage until I'd been dating the guy for a year. I had dated seriously before Shane. . . my longest relationship lasted over three years, but I never felt the way about him that I do about Shane. When people say, "When you know, you just know," they are not kidding! Shane and I had both prayed and fasted about our big decision, and we knew it was right. 

Love is unexpected, and it really does come when you least expect it. I love Shane more than anything in this world and I know that he feels the same way about me. We are a perfect match, and we couldn't be happier than we are now. 

I love love, but I love my husband mostest.