Marriage

I love being married and I love my husband. I love going to sleep with him less than a foot away from me and I love being so happy. I really can't remember the last time I was this happy. (I think I was nine.) 

Being married is great, people!

Love and marriage is sometimes a difficult topic to discuss. Before Shane and I got engaged, I hated talking to my married friends, (I still loved them though!!) I hated reading lovey nonsense on facebook, and I hated looking at pictures of couples who were so happy together. I hated it all because I was jealous. I wanted to have all that and I wanted to be in love.

A little before Shane and I started dating, I had completely sworn off boys. I had my guy friends, but I was refusing to let myself get involved with anyone. I kept telling myself over and over that I loved being single, hoping that if I said it enough, it would come true. I was done with relationships. In my previous blog, www.myfishmonster.blogspot.com (it's still there,) I had even written about how awesome being independent and single was. I wrote:

"I am single. I have realized that this is exactly what I need to be truly happy. I need to be FREE. I need to let myself do what I want and not worry about anything else. I don't want any commitments with anyone. I want to be my own self, worry about my own self, and have fun for once."

Oh how wrong I was! I'm pretty sure I made God laugh with this, because two months after I wrote this, Shane showed up in my life. And man. . . our relationship moved FAST! We went on dates every night, (I kid you not, we still have yet to go a day without seeing each other,) we became exclusive within ten days, we began talking about marriage two weeks into our relationship, and on September tenth, one month and one day after our first date, we got engaged. We sealed the deal on December first. 

Doesn't that sound scary?? Moving that fast, hooooly crap! I always told myself I would never even consider marriage until I'd been dating the guy for a year. I had dated seriously before Shane. . . my longest relationship lasted over three years, but I never felt the way about him that I do about Shane. When people say, "When you know, you just know," they are not kidding! Shane and I had both prayed and fasted about our big decision, and we knew it was right. 

Love is unexpected, and it really does come when you least expect it. I love Shane more than anything in this world and I know that he feels the same way about me. We are a perfect match, and we couldn't be happier than we are now. 

I love love, but I love my husband mostest. 

12.01.2011

The day of the wedding was so great! My aunt Jessica came over in the morning to do my hair, my little sister Brooklyn did my makeup, and Rocco came over and videoed. It was so exciting!
 Usually I text Shane when I wake up in the mornings, but I was so busy that I just didn't. My mom and I gathered everything we needed and showed up at the temple at 10:30am. A few minutes after we arrived Shane came running in with wet hair and tired eyes. He had slept in!! I am SOOO glad he woke up in time to make it, I would have thought I was getting stood up! Anyway, we did the sealing and everything went perfectly. We then went outside to do pictures. It was SO windy and SO cold, but my adrenaline was pumping so much that I didn't notice the freezing temperature. After the pictures, we went to the Red Lantern where we had our luncheon with those who came to the temple. We then went back to the apartment and watched Smallville and fell asleep until the reception. At 4:00pm, we went to Magnolia Grove to take pictures. We then celebrated our wedding with all of our friends at the reception. Besides the insane wind outside, not one thing went wrong. Absolutely everything was perfect!! We are so in love and so happy together, and we are so grateful for everyone who shared our special day with us!!
(These pictures were taken by my mom, the professional one will be posted once we receive them!)

 Coming out of the temple!

 Shane's family minus Kole who is serving a mission in North Carolina.

 My brothers.

 My beautiful bridesmaids!!

 Shane was so cold!

 *Mwah*

 At the luncheon.

 Our good friend Joe performed my all time favorite love song, Come What May, (from Moulin Rouge.) It was perfect!

 My sister Marci made the cake, (lemon on the bottom, my favorite! Chocolate in the middle and vanilla on top!) the cake toppers are the Fantastic Four action figures! 

I made the bouquet, biggest pain in my butt, but worth it I think!

 Shane and Jeffrey.

 Some of our best family friends!

 My sister, the friendly giant.

 Lynnli and Alyssa.

 Eating and visiting with Melanie and Z.

They all look so thrilled.

3 2 1 Go

I love that I will never have another boyfriend, and I love that I now have a fiance. I have a fiance! I'm going to be a wife; not only a wife, but a wife to the most amazing, sweet, perfect, handsome man in the world! And he's going to be my husband! Ahhhh!

I love that Shane loves color. I've always been addicted to color. I used to get told that I would never find anyone to be with who would love color as much as I do, but guess what, I did! And he's wonderful!

Shane is crazy. He says things that I don't always understand, but it's always somehow funny. And the randomness of his comments and answers to questions crack me up. I can't get enough of it!

I have never met anyone as sweet as Shane. He opens the door for me, he tells me he loves me constantly so that I never doubt it, he's always complimenting me, and he's so understanding about everything. They don't come any sweeter than Shane, be jealous I got him.

Shane and I always seem to be thinking the same thing. It doesn't matter what it has to do with, we are always just thinking alike!! It's one of the most awesome things about us!

Shane holds my hand, hugs and kisses, and dances with me in public, and he's not even embarrassed! He doesn't ever act ashamed to be around me, instead it seems like he shows me off most of the time. It's the greatest feeling in the world!

I love that it doesn't matter what Shane and I are doing, we're always having fun! We could be out somewhere, sitting on the swing, going for a walk, or just watching a movie, and it is always the best! I've never had as much fun with anyone as I have with him. He's super fun and he makes me super happy!

Shane has been such a good influence on me, and I love it! Just being around him makes me want to be a better person. He is such a good person! And I love so so much!

Shane is always putting me first. I never asked him to, he just does it. He's very sweet that way, and he's always showing me how much he cares about me and it's so awesome! I don't ever think he doesn't care about me, but it's nice reassurance when I'm having a bad day. Does that make sense? Hmm.

I love going shopping with Shane. He is hilarious and we goof off a lot in public. It's fun, he's the best he is!

I love Shane Randall and can't wait to marry him in four months!!

We're Engaged!!

Shane and I had talked about getting married before, so I knew a proposal was coming, I just didn't know when it would be. He'd picked out a ring earlier this week and I knew he wasn't getting it until Saturday night, so the proposal could be any time after that. We were talking about it one day, and he told me that he was going to fake propose to me a few times so that when it was the real proposal I wouldn't be expecting it at all. I told him how mean that was, and he just thought it was funny. . .

Saturday rolled around and I was getting excited! I knew that any day after that Shane could be proposing! We had my grandma's birthday party to go to at five, and at four fifty I got a phone call from him. He said that he'd gotten off a few minutes early and he wanted to come get me so we could hurry and take some fun pictures at our favorite place while it was light outside and good weather. I thought that was a little strange, but said ok. On the way to Daybreak lake, I started thinking that maybe he was going to propose!! But then I remembered the jewelers said the ring wouldn't be ready until seven, so that idea quickly left my brain. We got to the lake and started walking over to the echo tunnel. When we were almost there he stopped me! He pointed down and there was a painted rock with the letter "I" on it. I looked at it and then at him. He told me to pick it up and I called him a jerk and grabbed it, (I thought it was a fake proposal.) On the back it said something he loved about me. I looked at him and told him fake proposals are not funny! We walked a little farther down and there was another one with a heart. And then another, and another! It spelled out, "I heart Candy," and by the time we were at the "Y" rock, we were at the tunnel. In the tunnel was a brand new porch swing. I called him a jerk again and told him this had better not be fake. (He's not a jerk, I was just freaking out. I LOVE SHANE!) We walked over to the swing and sat down. He talked to me for a couple of minutes, (I only remember half of what he said, I was SO nervous and excited,) and then he told me that this porch swing we were sitting on is ours, and he wanted to show me something on it. He reached around and grabbed a box. OH MY GOSH IT WAS EXCITING! He then got down on one knee and proposed!! Of course I said yes! All of a sudden Shane's whole family came out, they were all there taking pictures and recording! We took a few more pictures, then his family left for a few minutes so we could sit on the swing and talk. We talked, and hugged, and kissed, and giggled, and then we had to go to my grandma's birthday party. (Perfect timing, I didn't have to call any relatives, they were all there!)

All right so the background to the proposal:

The rocks: When I was little I used to paint and sell rocks, so he thought that would be cute to tie in. He painted them dark purple, blue, and aqua, (our wedding colors that we'd decided!)

The Echo Tunnel: It's one of our favorite places. When we go on walks around the lake, which we do often, we always stop in the echo tunnel and yell random words or sing random songs.

The Porch Swing: Our absolute favorite thing to do is sit on the porch swing and talk. We'd much rather be sitting there swinging instead of watching a movie or playing a game.

The proposal was perfect and I couldn't be marrying a more perfect man! I am so lucky to have Shane in my life, and can't wait to spend the rest of forever with him!